Saturday, February 12, 2011

Feelings ... are complicated

Today, I had one of these days, when I just feel sad. Do you know these days? It's the day where you have not much to do, stay in the room, and nothing happens. I am always a bit angry with myself on these days because I feel stupid for feeling the way I feel. I mean, I really have a good life, in fact, it is pretty awesome. I have a family that I love a lot and that loves you, very good friends, that get everybody is healthy, we have more than enough to eat, and then, still feeling a bit new, I have you. 
I know that far distance is far from being perfect and on depressive days like today, I might shed a tear or two, but then starts the catharsis. Therefore I hope, I did not give you the wrong impression, with the song link, I did send you. I am not sad (most of the time ;)). 
I am someone who likes to think about what I have, how bad it could be and to be thankful for that. Imagining that I would not have you in my life, I understand, that would be a reason to be sad. But I am still a realistic person. Nothing in life is granted. But when I think about this and about how much worse it could be, I realize, no matter where our way takes us, I am very happy that we met and that we are trying. And that is, why I am very happy. I smile now, lying here. And the more unrealistic, romantic voice inside of me, tells me we will always find our ways to each other, cause you are the love of my life. My smile intesifies.

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